Here it is, the first post.
Yesterday I read an interesting post from 2012, about the importance of blogging, and I feel not much has changed in those years, the few things that have changed are not for good. This post is not to analyze the problem, but given the fact that writing posts was something I actually enjoyed a lot, and since I tried to be smart and move into some of the new platforms described there I gradually started losing the joy of it, I’ve decided it is time to get back to the original idea.
Lately I’ve been trying to write more often, the main reason is mental health, but I often find that there is no purpose in writing, and I think part of that feeling is associated with the idea of purpose coming from the publishing platforms. I need to think better what the purpose of my writings should be, but at least I think it is important to show my future employers how I structure my ideas and how I communicate. I have been thinking a lot recently about getting a new job, and what kind of job I want to get. I would love to create my own company, and while it is true that if you really want something you find the way, I feel I don’t want it that much according to those terms, there is always a cost associated with anything and the cost associated with having my own business, at this time is just prohibitive, probably because of poor decisions I’ve taken in the past, almost sure about that, still, I need to focus in the present and not to think that much about a past I cannot change.
I often try to explain others and myself why I am doing the things I am doing, I believe it is because I am completely lost but it is not something I can publish openly, because people don’t expect 40 years old to be completely lost in life. Also they assume it translates to other areas, like not being able to work efficiently, or to honor commitments, I think those ideas are completely wrong. First because there are many people as lost as I am, they just don’t accept it because they have been taught that it is not socially acceptable, so they pretend they are not. Second, because it is hard to establish any objective correlation between internal feelings and external performance, I know being depressed is not nice, well, of course, but often depression is a matter of how you articulate it.
Anyway, here it is, the first post of a new start.